Our infertility was diagnosed early in our marriage and we have seen many doctors and specialists. As I reflect back over the last 12+ years and all the emotions, medications, doctor’s appointments, tests, procedures, and so much more; I think about the reasons why. My plans as a young woman, even before I met my husband was to get married and have 3 boys by the age of 30. Well, that plan went out the window since I am not God and not in control of anything, The Lord knows the plans He has for each of us (Jeremiah 29:11). There is no way to separate infertility from the rest of your life, it is a part of your story, who you are.
Thinking this last few weeks about infertility and how much it affects one’s life and every aspect of it. Going through intense infertility treatment over the past year has opened my eyes to how fragile life is and how God has designed and created life. Every aspect of fertility treatment is so intricate and at every level and treatment, I have seen God’s hand in each and every step. I had such a strong aversion to IVF and did not want to do IVF for many years. I used to think that IVF was playing God, but now I know that IVF can only work if God is there, the creator of life. There are so many parts to IVF from stimulation, egg retrieval, sperm retrieval, fertilization, and embryo transfer, none of these can happen successfully without God Almighty. The clinic success rate, the provider, the treatments, the embryologist, the lab none of the means anything apart from God, He is there.
As we continue to walk this path and see God move in so many ways I will continue to trust in Him. I know that my Heavenly Father is leading me, directing our path, showing us one step at a time, and proving that he is faithful. God is good!