I don’t know where to start, it has been so long and so much has happened since I last blogged. Life has been a close balance of staying in the present and worrying about the future this past year. I am learning to surrender and put my faith in God as I live life while also going through IVF. IVF is something that you should be able to go through without any other stresses in life because that is a big one all its own. Yet, life does not happen that way and we must learn to juggle the moments and seasons of life more often than not they overlap. This year has been difficult not only for myself but for the world as well. I am thankful to be here by God’s grace. I am learning that God has a way to get our attention and make us more like Christ as we surrender to Him and His authority.
I am learning that fertility/infertility is still in God’s hand and under His control. Why did I think that I was? Having gone through a successful IVF cycle the first time and having a fresh embryo transfer only to still not have babies has truly shown me that I am not in control. We try though, thinking that the outcome lies in the many supplements, tests, procedures, and medications that we take never taking into account the Creator God almighty. It is God who gives life and sustains it, yes he can use science if He chose but the hope should not lie in science but in Christ. At least this is how I am choosing to walk in this season of life. Some days are harder than others but He will give you the grace to take the next step.